Removing something from my life that’s been the center for so long I couldn’t see how much it was affecting me negatively.
Saying goodbye to my camera.
Still a little hard to say, but the freedom in selling most of my gear has been liberating. I didn’t realize how freeing it would be till I finally took down parts of my site and announced I was stepping away for a while. Once it was official, peace and a little adrenaline flooded in, relief.
I have been so discontent with everything from my small town of no possibility to even at times, the weather and trees😆. Saying no to something I thought was my life’s passion has made me so weirdly happy and it’s kind of confusing! The daily striving to succeed, be valued, be somewhere else, the competition and drama. It’s over and it’s amazing:)
Not sure what the point of sharing all this was, but if something in your life isn’t sitting right, take time, lots of time if you need, to step back and really look at everything. Whats consuming your thoughts and causing reactions, these negative feelings. If you find something that’s a constant source of anguish or destructive thought then remove it. If you can’t remove it for some reason, love it from a distance and heal.
It was hard at first to even think of possibily quitting my dream, the only thing I feel truly good at… but as time went on, hurtful things kept happening, further confirming that my vocation wasn’t right…this wasn’t supposed to cause more pain than joy. And as the months have gone there have been changes in my heart & mind happening too, new ideas and dreams to aspire, learn, a hint of direction. So if you’re in a place of discouragement and constant struggle to find joy in your work, there’s is something else for you, so many things. Find the thing that will bring you true peace and joy or maybe one day if you wait it will come to you and when it does, grab onto it.